My Little Boy

Dedicated to cancer survivors

We fought a silent battle, between these hospital walls
We fought a silent battle, as we walked down the halls
Your little hand wrapped around mine, as I walked you down the corridor
I remember all the times we laughed, inside the bedroom door

Now you're gone, my little boy
Now you're gone, my little friend
The silent killer has killed once again
Now you're gone, my little soldier
Now you're gone, my little boy
All the laughter, all the sweetness, all the joy

Through his patience I found the strength, to go on everyday
And though the memories are painful, I'm very glad to say
He was my little boy

And though you might have lost the battle, I think you won the war
And through your death and memories, I am now grateful for
Everyday I'm here on this earth, and the chance I had to meet you
Every month I'm free of this disease, and it's all thanks to you

Now you're gone, my little boy
Now you're gone, my little friend
The silent killer has killed once again
Now you're gone, my little soldier
Now you're gone, my little boy
May you find happiness, peace and joy

BLF '99

My Beloved

My Beloved
I sat and watched through the trees
As the rain poured down in this cemet'ry
The tears rolled down my pale face

Sweet Beloved
The preacher tried to comfort but only made it worse
Like alcohol poured by a sadistic nurse
I want to leave this corrupt place

Caring Beloved
Why did you leave me here all alone?
Why couldn't you have stayed for one more song?
Can't understand how you could hurt me so

My Beloved
Why shouldn't I just give up?
Can't stand to live without your love
Would I, could I, should I just let go?

BLF '98

Leaves In The Wind

The stars twinkle in the night
Like the sparkle in your eyes
The colored diamonds in the sky
The wind is cold

The trees rustled in the wind
I find myself stuck again
In this lion's den
The storm is coming

Take care my child
May you rest in the wild
The pain will never be mild
They lay you down

Tears fall from people's faces
They go off to their safe places
To their lives of leather and laces
The pain is mine alone

I crawl into his arms tonight
Hidden in the darkness I start to cry
He comforts me as you die
I hope you rest in peace

BLF '99

It Hurts To See

Sometimes it hurts to see so I close my eyes
Sometimes it hurts to breathe so I don't try
The pain is overwhelming, I try to stay asleep
Maybe grab another minute away from this pain I keep

I learned a method years ago
To hide my pain
First freeze then boil
Hopefully it'll go away

Never does, though, does it?
You can only go away for so long
Before you return to reality
Face the fact of being alone

So I sit here in the night
Try to stay sane
Taking each day as it comes
Dealing with the pain

First freeze then boil
It'll go away
The tears'll go away

BLF '99

I Wish I Was The Sun

I wish I was the sun
That my rays of love could warm you
That I could light your way through the world
Lead you to me

I wish I was the moon
That I could gaze upon your sleeping body
Look at the peace in your face as you dream
Perhaps you dream of me

I wish I was the wind
That my fingers could run through and rustle your hair
That I could cool your skin on a hot day
Like my kisses used to

I wish I was the sea
That I could lightly caress every inch of your body
I could touch and seduce and manipulate your skin
Like my hands used to

I wish I was me
Only here with you

BLF '99

I Sit Across

I sit across from where we met
The scene plays through my mind
I take a breath and close my eyes
As I see you one more time

I sit across from where we made love
I can't stand to sleep in that bed anymore
I'd toss and turn at night with your memories
And the horrible guilt I bear

I sit across from where I betrayed you
Your trust was shattered like a vase
And as you walked away I remember seeing
The tears streaming down your face

I sit across from your grave
A bouquet of flowers in my hand
I wonder if I ever had your forgiveness
But I don't think I deserve a grain of sand

I sit across from where we met
The scenes plays through my mind
I look at my shot glass, down my drink
Close my eyes to see you one more time

BLF '99

I Need You

I need you like I need the light
The warmth and the strength to fight
I need you like I need the dark
The cool, the calm, a place to hide
From all the things that plague me
From which only you can save me.

I need you like I need the day
The softness, the things you say
I need you like I need the night
That holds the man and the love
That send me screaming for more
Makes me feel like I've never felt before.

I need you like I need nourishment
Both fill me, leave me content
I need you like I need a drink,
Peace and quiet and time to think
About us and the things we share,
The weeks that fly, and if you care.

I need you like I need the rain
To cleanse and wash away my pain
I need you like I need the fire
To kindle my sweet desire
For you to kiss me everywhere,
To enjoy the times we share.

BLF '98